an so....i dont know?

Being the age i am Ive realised a few things, no one prepares you for anything! I'm not saying its everyones concern to tell you everything, but a few facts would of been nice. I got hefty confused with this whole saas business, so i go to the front desk and the 'lovely' women just had a blank expression on her face an promptly handed me a leaflet, forgetting the fact i don't need this leaflet i know what I'm doing i only asked what this eight digit number was saas so desires? .....she didn't know, i didn't know, an i still don't know, im assuming she doesn't know still ether.
Going back a few....few years no one told me the process of getting to college and beyond. They ask you what you wanna do, and i rattled off something about design thinking that's good enough to get them to GO AWAY! if someone had sat me down, shook me an explained that, first if u want to do design you go do appropriate the coarse, theeen you got to have this paper work to get funding, then if you so desire this is the next part of it. People are dropping out of college left right and centre, giving up on something because it feels like whats the point? No one shows us the future, or how to get there or what to do when we are there. No one sits us down an says CUT THE CRAP THIS IS SERIOUS! unless you wanna be on the dole obviously. I had no clue what was on offer after my art coarse. What was i supposed to do? randomly go on another course? I don't know, i was confused. So i went on a completely different course, another nq. At the end of that people said they were applying for uni already! if i wanted to pursue what i wanted at the time would i have to all of a sudden up sticks and move? get loads of money together? should i apply ed as well? I when i was supposed to be moving on to the next step i stopped and just took up a full time job. Give it a year an a bit an i know i cant work 9-5 doing something i honestly hate doing. So back i go, an really its gotten a bit better im more in the know about stuff, but seriously i needed to know this stuff years back. They should take out a class or add one in high school an just EXPLAIN stuff! in dumb people terms, i didn't have a single clue, i only have started getting it. Or maybe im just dumb?

now yor all gone

Used to be one of the rotten ones and I liked you for that.
Now you're all gone got your make-up on and you're not coming back.
Bleaching your teeth, smiling flash, talking trash, under your breath.




Used to be one of the rotten ones and I liked you for that.Now you're all gone got your make-up on and you're not coming back.

damn im thirsy for some chemicals

There have been lots of say so about a chemical called Aspartame.Good for consumption, bad for consumtion? where one set of people will say its safe, it should be its been approved by the food agencys, an then theres the other set.....like my sister who blame it on every SINGLE one of her symtems. While im not saying there isnt a health risk to any of us drinking an eating something that isnt natrual, or natrually sorced, im also not saying its the dooms day for us all having that suger free bar an diet coke. And plus coke have come a long way since adding real cocaine to there drink. Wouldnt we all complain if this 'health risk' was taken away from us anyways? what would the people who never drink full fat do? what will those skinnie minnies who enjoy a good no suger bar do? Needless to say a public kick up would start. An plus to much suger is bad for us to! What is one to do and think?
Some of the symptoms of aspartame have been reported as...
Headache
Dizziness
Change of mood
Vomiting
Cramps
Change in vision
Diarrhea
Memory Loss
Weakness
Sleep problems
Change in heart rate
Numbness
Change in activity levels
Difficulty breathing

Is it just me or does this sound like the aftermath of a drunken night?
Im sceptical to say the least.
My sister is the person who particularity annoys me, she drinks every weekend, and she drinks allot! a couple weeks ago she went on a Friday Saturday Sunday an Monday bender! obviously she was gonna be hung over.
She had a can of coke, and now obviously blamed everything on this chemical. Shes convinced shes allergic to it, and she ain't letting go of her therie! it actually annoys me no end! i know we take it in our own hands to what we eat drink an smoke but more people die of smoking than having a can of coke. Get real!

Is organic where its at?

Fact, organic produce doesn't taste any better than ordinary. What does taste better is fresh carrots in the summer, not in winter once they have been stored for months and have more transport miles than the starship enterprise. How do you justify the crazy prices for Organic meat when to be organic, most of the expensive processes used by farmers are left out. If you want better tasting veg and fruit, grow it yourself and eat if fresh. What about organic crisps? Sure the potatoes may have survived with out being sprayed, but that seems stupid when they are covered in oil, fried, doused in salt or artificial flavours. The bit i do like about it is mabye with organic the animals are treated better. Had a better life while they had it.

Swine flu...or just common flu?

I suspect out of all this swine flu business it might just be the normal flu making its rounds. Like it does every year, only this time its a bit stronger. Scientists even say that the flu virus gets stronger as time passes. Ive read articles of it being around as early as WWI so it is capable of dyeing down, but just this time its flaring up again. Just let time go by and i suspect this will pass. Then we can start something else that's 'dangerous' to our health.
Why don't we just look after ourselves anyways? We all know whats good for us and whats bad for us and that looking after yourself your more capable of fighting of disease. Henry the 8Th had malaria, varicose ulcers, possible brain damage, and suffered from migraines after a smack to the front of his head, apparently he had syphilis as well, and to top it all off, diabetes. In the end everything just ravishing his unhealthy body, but my point is in the days when medicine was leaches, Henry lived with multiple infections, but he was a fit active young man, and only started getting ill when he stopped moving and couldn't play anymore. An that's my point we care more about the cure, why don't we fix the cause?

Thinking of the living

I was reading this book and a certain quote really stuck in my head. When people die, either naturally or of a disease, when they finally go and leave this world, and this is where the quote made me think "We grieve for the living," and it does seem true to me.
I thought back to when my grandad who died a couple of years ago of cancer (due to smoking) we all felt terrible for my grandad but ultimately i was thinking of my gran, how was she coping? I don't know what ide gain by writing this but ultimately that maybe its true. The fact it was such a small simple sentence made the impact on me so much greater, something so simple can easily never be said cos its to simple people haven't thought about it. Very rairley does anything stick in my head, and the fact that this did made it special. Also Ive always just assumed we grieve and its for the dead. If i think, i wasn't, yes its sad there gone, but there gone, there free now. My gran is still here and really i felt sad for her. The fact her life changed so dramatically. I wonder if other people realise that in fact they were grieving for the living without noticing it as well. I certainly was.

Easter Vs Christmas

I'm not a Christian and i don't know much about the meaning of Easter, except that perhaps Jesus came back to life. Christmas is the story of Jesus being born. Both kinda just....false. I believe that there is something higher than us all, something spiritual. Not aliens but something. Now though both have kinda lost most of there meaning in a flurry of money and chocolate. Easter i think has almost entirely lost its meaning. Its this random holiday that means we get stuffed on chocolate, mums try and stick to there diets and we get a nice wee holiday for a couple of weeks. Not to do anything like remember Christ coming back to life, but mostly to stay up late and then sleep in the next day. Christmas is rife with give give give and take take take. It seems. It feels special though. Its that time if you have ignored someone for so long then would be a good time to push differences aside and reunite. Family have time to come together again, and gran has a chance to embarrass everyone and have a good knees up on a couple cheerys. Somehow it feels cosy and theres a twinkle in every ones eyes. Its a time to think of the upcoming year and pro mice yourself a new start. Something new to focus on. Christian or not its special, if not for religious reasons then for the reason you get to see people you haven't for years, its a time to set things aside and take stock, and just enjoy being off and being thankful. Christmas trumps Easter.